beattyslmFeb 265 minGrief after a guilty pleaThe guilty plea does nothing for the pain and sorrow I feel about losing Carly, especially in the way she was killed. There is not enough...
beattyslmJul 10, 20213 minLiving in a Gray WorldThe colors of life are many. Life was full of various shades of bright vibrant yellows and reds. Such as the beautiful morning sunshine...
beattyslmApr 12, 20212 minTrapped in a NightmareThe sadness never ends. The triggers never end. The what if's never end. The heartbreak never ends. The longing never ends. Life as I...
beattyslmMar 21, 20212 minSurvivor "In life there are many kinds of heroes, but sometimes you can be something more than a hero...you can be a survivor." This quote from...
beattyslmJan 21, 20212 minIsolationIt's been 16 months since Carly was killed and it has been a rough, very emotional journey so far. Part of my suffering has been to...
beattyslmDec 28, 20203 minValley of DarknessI never knew what it meant to walk in a valley of darkness until now. Everything is covered with a heavy shadow and no light can get...
beattyslmDec 6, 20203 minSlowly DyingI am in a constant state of what I call slowly dying. The life I had when Carly was a part of it is gone and slipping away day by day....
beattyslmNov 14, 20202 minForcedHave you ever been forced to do something against your will? I don't mean obligations or following the laws or God's commandments. I mean...
beattyslmOct 25, 20203 minThe Start of the Second YearThey say the second year is harder then the first. I never understood how that could be, but now that I'm here, I understand completely....
beattyslmSep 21, 20203 minThe Worst Day of My Life (Part 2)A year ago on September 21, 2019 in the evening was the last time I had the privilege and honor of holding my beautiful daughter's hand,...
beattyslmSep 14, 20202 minThe Worst Day of My Life (Part one)As I sit here in the midst of a panic attack, and tears. I wonder, do you know she had it all figured out? She graduated from high school...
beattyslmSep 12, 20203 minDaughterlessIt is coming up on a year ago that Carly was hit and killed by an intoxicated driver. In one way I can't believe a year has gone by...
beattyslmAug 31, 20202 minHelping a Grieving MomIt's interesting to me that I have lost a child, which in my option, is the worst loss ever possible and then have to deal with hurtful...
beattyslmAug 25, 20202 minSorrowI am so sad and full of sorrow. My heart is broken and will never heal. I have emptiness that will be with me forever. My life will never...
beattyslmAug 20, 20203 minWhy, why, whyWhen will the pain end watching college students return to college towns? This year has been heart wrenching for me as Carly should be...
beattyslmAug 14, 20202 minGrieving back to college season Last night I opened my Instagram to briefly look through and the very first post in front of me took my breath away. It was a picture of...
beattyslmAug 12, 20202 minLoss of a ChildWow...where to start. No one can imagine the pain, sorrow, and emptiness of losing a child. It's like before you became a parent, you...
beattyslmAug 11, 20202 minBereaving during CovidMy beautiful, precious daughter was hit and killed by an intoxicated driver almost 11 months ago now. Not long after her...
beattyslmSep 16, 20191 minFriendsPlease share your stories, thoughts and prayers with us about Carly.